How to find what I really want to do with y life;
Q: Let say I have all the money in the world to survive this lifetime, what would I do ?
A: First and foremost, RESIGN !
Q: Then what ?
A: I will resume living, complete the furniture in the house and buy a studio unit apartment where I can hoard my stuffs, do paintings and whatever project I want. Payoff debts..mine, my husband's and my parent's. Then continue on doing my thing.
Get a piece if land.
Have animals in the safari.
Have tree-houses for each and everyone of us, having our own addresses and a cute mailbox on the ground.
Must have the "Meet The Robinson" bread shaped trampouline/just trees shape like bread and huge maze for zombie role-playing.
Sunday, 31 March 2013
Thursday, 28 March 2013
Things to do before I die
Because of my earlier post, The Top 5 Regret of Dying People I decided to really go for what I love and who I want to be.
1. I want to put on zombie make up and go shopping at Tesco.
2. Put on make up to look hideous and film how people look at me.
3. Make an amusement park.. a Zombie apocalypse studio for role playing.
4. Dine at gucci places all the time..I mean cozy with nice interior and deserts.
5. Really transform my house into a crib of my husband's dream.
6. Have children who loves me unconditionally.
7. Buy gifts for Birthdays and etc
8. Buy a piece of land and declare my country. With zombie proof house and treehouses. Place to rare animal for meal and poultry and plant vegies.
9. Send motivational/sarcastic msg from an annonymous facebook account to fb inbox of my husband cousins and family.
10. Play with colors and stuffs..Mega paintings and artwork.
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1. I want to put on zombie make up and go shopping at Tesco.
2. Put on make up to look hideous and film how people look at me.
3. Make an amusement park.. a Zombie apocalypse studio for role playing.
4. Dine at gucci places all the time..I mean cozy with nice interior and deserts.
5. Really transform my house into a crib of my husband's dream.
6. Have children who loves me unconditionally.
7. Buy gifts for Birthdays and etc
8. Buy a piece of land and declare my country. With zombie proof house and treehouses. Place to rare animal for meal and poultry and plant vegies.
9. Send motivational/sarcastic msg from an annonymous facebook account to fb inbox of my husband cousins and family.
10. Play with colors and stuffs..Mega paintings and artwork.
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Top 5 Regrets in Life of Dying People
By Bronnie Ware
For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth.
Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again.
Here are the most common five:
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me
This was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have not honored even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honor at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late.
Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.
2. I wish I hadn't work so hard
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence. By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends
Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down.
Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years.
There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved.
Everyone misses their friends when they are dying. It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip.
But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It all comes down to love and relationships in the end.
That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits.
The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.
When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind.
How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying. Life is a choice. It is YOUR life.
Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.
"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have,
but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."
-Frederick Koenig
For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth.
Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again.
Here are the most common five:
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me
This was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have not honored even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honor at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late.
Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.
2. I wish I hadn't work so hard
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence. By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.
3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends
Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down.
Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years.
There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved.
Everyone misses their friends when they are dying. It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip.
But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It all comes down to love and relationships in the end.
That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits.
The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.
When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind.
How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying. Life is a choice. It is YOUR life.
Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.
"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have,
but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."
-Frederick Koenig
Yesterday Meeting
Owh and I ROCK in the meeting yesterday!!! Awesome ideas with awesome sarcastic delivery...Hahahaha. So i thought la. LOL>.>.>> I LOVE ME.
If it Scares you, It might be Good for you.. MIGHT..
Yesterday I felt so dragged to get myself there. With my head feeling like a mutated midget trying to crack it open from the inside..(PMS) and heavy rain, I drove to Bangsar. Yay me.
I'm glad I went to see my 'no longer just a virtual friend' yesterday evening. We dine at Wonder Mama in Bangsar Village and talked till 9.30pm++ i guess.. reached home at 10.30pm. Amazing conversation we had. Mostly not what I expected to hear. Amazing girl with amazing attitude. Someone that is the total opposite of me. She's like a window to the outside world..real world (where i don't live) for me. I live in my head :P All of my virtual friends are my window. Sounds pretty naive. I know that.
As the hours pass by and she lowered her guard down, and finally spill the truth behind those smiles. There's no way I could expected it. I couldn't discuss it openly here thou. Then it hit me! I realize why I am there with her having such conversation. I did subconsciously attracted her. Her insights story have a lot to do with the web I'm currently developing(I pay someone to do it for me..hahah!).
The meeting yesterday kept my mind busy on my way home. A lot to absorb and to be process. Poor thing I came back home to a Korean drama marathon...and only get to sleep at 4am . What have I done to myself. Its a waste of time. URGH! Hate myself after that.
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| Seth Godin |
Notice the keyword?? Its "Might". Hurm. Still am exploring.
I like the below poster thou..
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| But Zombie don't sleep |
Wednesday, 27 March 2013
Me and my Rotten Social Life
A- My Virtual friend who claim to be at my wedding without me noticing her presence ask me to go to Genting Highland with her this weekend..
B- Gonna have meeting with my boss at 4pm..the 2 owner of this small company.
C- Scheduled to hangout today after work in Bangsar with a Virtual friend.
D- Gonna see an ex -colleague tomorrow in MV.
I can plan but don't really feel like going. I need a push. Been always does.. I no longer live with my mom so nobody gonna push me to do anything. Always second guessing whenever I have appointments. But will feel ok once I pass the decision part and actually meet the person..any person.
I would regret the meeting if my leg cramps the whole time during the meeting. This happen if I dislike the person or so effing admiring em..hahaha.. I would feel normal if they are below my intellectual. So yes.. I'm afraid of being judge and worried of what ppl may think of me. Silly Sally.
B- Gonna have meeting with my boss at 4pm..the 2 owner of this small company.
C- Scheduled to hangout today after work in Bangsar with a Virtual friend.
D- Gonna see an ex -colleague tomorrow in MV.
I can plan but don't really feel like going. I need a push. Been always does.. I no longer live with my mom so nobody gonna push me to do anything. Always second guessing whenever I have appointments. But will feel ok once I pass the decision part and actually meet the person..any person.
I would regret the meeting if my leg cramps the whole time during the meeting. This happen if I dislike the person or so effing admiring em..hahaha.. I would feel normal if they are below my intellectual. So yes.. I'm afraid of being judge and worried of what ppl may think of me. Silly Sally.
Culture Shock- Meeting the husband's cousins and chilldren
Last Sunday we babysit 6 kids.. Their parents have to attend a 'Porch' wedding. No children allowed.
They are my husband nieces and nephews.
Handling kids is as easy as ABC. Its just tiring(normal), but super fun. Handling the adults is where I failed at. I mean their parents. There's no doubt I can score and be the best person they will ever know in their entire lifetime. But that would be cheating. I don't want to pretend anymore.
So my last Sunday goes like this....
His Cousin A came by and drop off their children.. I met these kids almost everyday. We are close :)
Then another Cousin B came to drop her daughter.. Cousin B was with her mom. She kinda 'kepoh' with an attitude Idislike hate. She prepared a basket of her daughter's milk and rubbery charred scramble eggs. She went to my kitchen with her eyes rolling wild around my messy and dirty kitchen(I know I'm a mess :p). As I expected, they started talking about kitchen cabinet (we still don't have one..our kitchen is naked), sofas and etc. No, I won't spend a dime to impress you :p. I'll buy when I'm ready and when I find something I like :>
And several mins later Cousin C arrive with her 3 children. This is the most fussy one. Hahahah. Yes, she gave me the same attitude as Cousin B did. My husband entertain them. I just ignore them as I was LLB doing zombie make up for Cousin A's 8 years old son. Speaking of this 8 years old boy. This kid value branded stuffs. Like Gucci, LVs and etc. He really love my Coach bag. FYI..I did not buy them. Its was a wedding gift. OMG kids these days.
Kesian.
After the parents went off, my husband took 5 of em to Sg.Long. Sending Cousin C's daughters to Ballet Class. Hahahahahahh! Yea..Ballet. And we are Muslim thou. No! I'm actually am ok with that coz she is just a kid..5 years old kid. But it is not consistent with her statement before about a Muslim guy can't wear silk ..even mix materials with silk.. "????" and her 5 years old daughter must wear a long sleeves dress to be our flower girl(at my wedding) Duhhh??? Hahahahha! Really did makes me laugh.
I stayed at home with the 8 years old boy. Finishing the zombie make up and taking photos and wash it off.
Then they came back..make them eat lunch, aid them doing the artwork using pastel colors, 3D Glitters and Stencil.
Then its time to fetch the ballet dancers. It was raining dog shit at the time. Those 2 kids enter the car(its their parents MPV). Both of them are wet and the 12 years old ask for the cloth by the driver seat from my husband. He hand it over and she quickly wipe the water from the car door and window. Then only she took the tissue to wipe her head, neck and etc..
We went straight to Tesco.. put 2 of em in the trolley and my husband look after the others.
While walking back to the car, there were puddles everywhere! and the 12 years old was so cautious walking avoiding all puddles saying "Jangan pijak air, nanti kereta kotor". Hahahhhaah! Ok then.
So that's about it..
They worn us out and we doze off after their parents fetch them.
They are my husband nieces and nephews.
Handling kids is as easy as ABC. Its just tiring(normal), but super fun. Handling the adults is where I failed at. I mean their parents. There's no doubt I can score and be the best person they will ever know in their entire lifetime. But that would be cheating. I don't want to pretend anymore.
So my last Sunday goes like this....
His Cousin A came by and drop off their children.. I met these kids almost everyday. We are close :)
Then another Cousin B came to drop her daughter.. Cousin B was with her mom. She kinda 'kepoh' with an attitude I
And several mins later Cousin C arrive with her 3 children. This is the most fussy one. Hahahah. Yes, she gave me the same attitude as Cousin B did. My husband entertain them. I just ignore them as I was LLB doing zombie make up for Cousin A's 8 years old son. Speaking of this 8 years old boy. This kid value branded stuffs. Like Gucci, LVs and etc. He really love my Coach bag. FYI..I did not buy them. Its was a wedding gift. OMG kids these days.
After the parents went off, my husband took 5 of em to Sg.Long. Sending Cousin C's daughters to Ballet Class. Hahahahahahh! Yea..Ballet. And we are Muslim thou. No! I'm actually am ok with that coz she is just a kid..5 years old kid. But it is not consistent with her statement before about a Muslim guy can't wear silk ..even mix materials with silk.. "????" and her 5 years old daughter must wear a long sleeves dress to be our flower girl(at my wedding) Duhhh??? Hahahahha! Really did makes me laugh.
I stayed at home with the 8 years old boy. Finishing the zombie make up and taking photos and wash it off.
Then they came back..make them eat lunch, aid them doing the artwork using pastel colors, 3D Glitters and Stencil.
Then its time to fetch the ballet dancers. It was raining dog shit at the time. Those 2 kids enter the car(its their parents MPV). Both of them are wet and the 12 years old ask for the cloth by the driver seat from my husband. He hand it over and she quickly wipe the water from the car door and window. Then only she took the tissue to wipe her head, neck and etc..
We went straight to Tesco.. put 2 of em in the trolley and my husband look after the others.
While walking back to the car, there were puddles everywhere! and the 12 years old was so cautious walking avoiding all puddles saying "Jangan pijak air, nanti kereta kotor". Hahahhhaah! Ok then.
So that's about it..
They worn us out and we doze off after their parents fetch them.
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
I am Blessed, I am Happy
Happiness is Precious
Childhood Dilemma when you did something wrong
Retarded Diet
| Euphorically Happy |
Childhood Dilemma when you did something wrong
Kids nowadays
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| Homework after homework and classes after clases.. |
Now here's an Asian kid
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| Asian kid |
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Cherish Every Moment- Celebrate The Little Things
Be A Giver when was the last time you praise someone?? give money to the beggar on the street?? Now can you recall how it feel when you got free samples while passing through a busy street walking to catch the train? How do u like it when someone said you look pretty today?? Or buy you lunch?? It left you with smiling face the whole day and everytime you thought about it right..Lets praise each other :)
Lets celebrate all the little things ^^
Give Food
Give Money
Give Gift
Lets celebrate all the little things ^^
Give Food
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| You can share your food |
Give Money
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| Donate Some Money..Zakat |
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| Even the little things count |
Give Love
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| Its Free |
Give Praises
| Praise someone today |
Real Dream Will Keep You Awake
It’s so easy to lose focus and get distracted or scared by things around you. You get half way and think, ‘That’s close enough.’
I can no longer sleep at night, my blood is pumping, my brain won't rest and I always have to calm my self. Gosh I don't wanna be lost again this time. Its so easy to get lost in this Zombieland.
I shouted "To da Rescue!!!", yesterday..otw there..heheh...
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| Dream Big |
Yesterday, I did go to Seremban..its actually Taman Kristal..something something...its so effing far from Seremban. Hahah. This time is different. I'am so exited about going there to help this kid who injured by the motorcycle exhaust. I'm the one who dragged my husband to go there. That is very unlike me coz I am a person who only love the idea of doing stuffs and plan stuffs but will not really do it for real. If its travel that I'm planning then don't trust me. EVER. I don't feel safe outside my house or outside my car. But Hey!! I'm a different person now!
I shouted "To da Rescue!!!", yesterday..otw there..heheh...
I can now feel it in my heart. I care, I love and most importantly I FEEL COMFORTABLE talking to people in their house, giving consultation..having normal conversations and dine with them WITHOUT CRAMPS. Yay meeeee!!! I'm proud of me. I wonder what changed me. I think its because of the wake up call yesterday...(from my post Slap in The Face).
I am MORE FOCUS now. CLEAR PERSPECTIVE .
I desperately want people to like me before... so I put on masks to match their characters. Thing is, 'suan le'. If people doesn't like you then just let it be. Eg; I like Ryan Reynold but he doesn't like me and there's nothing I can do about it.. so be it, I'll go find other people lah. Hipocrit..!!! I thought I was before. Actually I'm just to ashamed to admit that i really-really-really care for people. Infact, I DON'T CARE, I LOVE. I just effing hate it when people turn me down when all i wanna do is to help them..Especially when there are children involved. $#!T. I sincerely don't want their money la. I did got broke while on the 'rescue mission' back then. Now that I'm going serious on putting it online and making it convenient for people, I gotta earn to sustain the biz and keep on feeding my need to contribute with the knowledge and the power to convince people that I have.
Dont get me wrong, I wanna earn money...NO!! I MUST EARN. I don't solely live on the free Oxygent that I breath. To keep the web up and running cost money, annual fees..and etc. I know how to earn and that is not by ripping people off ^___^
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| There's so much love in my heart that it started spilling now |
Monday, 4 March 2013
Powerful Mind- A slap in the face
Yesterday : 4th March 2013
1. I discovered that when you abandoned a person and stop giving her the health consultation she need to cure her arthritis, she only got worst by her own negligent.
I'm coming to the rescue this weekend ^^
2. I saw a photo uploaded by my husband's friend on fb. Her son's leg is burnt by her motor bike's exhaust..
it was horrendous! She was asking ppl on fb on how to heel it and we quickly call her. We're going to Seremban today to give her IG6 and aerobic oxygent.
I actually care for people. In fact, I care too much that i got emotionally attached to these people that i help. I thought once I leave that line of career I would feel better.. I would not have to face them, listen to their problems...held their hand as they suffer from cancer...and I'll stop getting death news from these people.
Right now i can still hear my friend's nephew who has cerebral palsy...crying and gasping for air followed by a seizure...The one, his parents are too cheap to by Kington for but can spend at IKEA.
I am wrong to punish everyone for such inhumane act by this insignificant people. I feel stupid now.
A Slap in the Face
The last I saw the arthritis lady was at the Shahputra Colleage's cafeteria..in 2011 i think.. I was telling her about my idea on the online health consultation thingy. She is super exited for me! I just learnt yesterday that her arthritis has worsen and she barely hold her phone now. I don't have much capitol at the time. I have none. As I hunt for a day time job so I can finance the business plan like normal zombies out there.. i went through a lot and even got killed by 'reality'. I forgotten my dreams and purpose as money and positions seems to be the measurement for success in the Zombieland.
I'm a Sales Manager now, and what does it give me?? only confusion and hunger for money. More MOney! Always feel lacking inside. Dragged my self off bed in the morning.
Wide Awake
Now that I'm awake, I promise Allah SWT, my self, and the world that I would execute the Escaping Zombieland Mission!
Gambate Jia!!!
I already did ^__^
Ya Allah, please lead the way ..Amin.
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